Me and Adrian broke up, another 2 girls like him and are apparently desperate to have him. I know I come first with him but I don't have the energy to keep pushing girls off him like that. And everytime I do get rid of a girl that likes him (usually by threatening them) everyone thinks I'm a psycho jealous bitch. It's Adrians fault, he's way too friendly with them. Why should I have to be the bitch all the time when I can be in a relationship were I don't have to be a bitch and I can actually trust my boyfriend not to flirt with other girls or lead other girls on. That's what he does, he leads girls on. If I wasn't so angry at some of these girls I'd feel sorry for them, he's doing to them what other boys have once done to me (and probably will continue doing till I fine 'the one'). I feel sorry for these girls, they're so desperate that they try to take someone who is already in a relationship. Makes me so angry. You can't be with someone any more without someone trying to take them from you. From now on I have no intention of being in a serious relationship until I'm through College and Nurse school and have become a nurse. I will find an average looking doctor who no one is remotely interested in, but is still nice and romantic, and then we will get married, have kids and live happily ever after. And he wouldn't cheat on me because he wouldn't be like that and I'd get some sort of bug attached to him so I know what he's doing at ALL times. I hate men.
It also annoys me that now me and Adrian have broken up all my friends are on BOTH of our sides, saying to both of us that they're both going to be there for us. It's like he's stolen all my friends now as well. Sometimes I wish I never went out with him. It is serious this time, I don't want to get hurt anymore, I should have listened to Conor when he first found out about us. Conor told me that Adrian would just end up hurting me, and he did. If I hadn't of gone out with Adrian then me and Tanya wouldn't have drifted apart, she wouldn't be with that dick Sam, she wouldn't be drinking so much and wait for it... she wouldn't be doing pills! PILLS. Of all things me and Tanya always swore we'd never touch pills and what does she do? She goes ahead and does them. I just want to tie her up, throw her in a car, drive to somewhere no one will find us, ween her off alcohol and drugs, convince her to break up with sam, and get her to eat properly. Then I'd take her home and we'd both be hypnotized into forgetting all the horrible stuff we said about each other. Problem solved! If only, ha. I wish that could happen. I'll sort my life out by this September, my weight, my depression, my friendship with Tanya, my social life and my money problems!
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