Woke up at 5:30pm today.. whoops. Couldn't sleep.. again. My Mum was being really mean today, she was really annoyed at me for sleeping in that late, I reminded her AGAIN that I don't sleep at night and it's not my fault but she just ignored me. She was in a bad mood all day, she was annoyed I didn't want to spend my money on buying takeout of her choice (curry, I HATE curry and she knows that) and then she was annoyed at me for not wanting to buy a bottle of wine with her and split the price (I need to stop drinking because I'm sad, the rest of my family turned out alcoholics like that and I'm going to be different!) and then she offered my food to fat Jacob without asking me.. and when I said no she got annoyed at me. I don't want to give any of MY food to Jacob because he's hideously over weight and he already eats ALL the good food in the house so that there's none left for anyone else. He's also a complete asshole and is cocky, thinks he knows everything about anything and each time an advert comes on TV he acts all superior and has a 5 minute rant about why it's stupid and doesn't make sense. He does that with EVERY advert on TV. He also makes fun of me for being depressed, and he makes fun of me for trying to kill myself. Mum did tell him off for making fun of the suicide incident but I should have punched him. On Halloween he made fun of people that cut themselves so I slapped him REALLY hard. I don't cut myself but there are times when I do want to, I feel so pathetic for writing that. I told him to fuck off and go back to Germany, I wish he would!
Jacob treats me and Gracie and my mum like shit! There are times when he's horrible to Adrian too, moaning that Adrian has more food then him, stealing Adrian's things, slagging Adrian off and calling him gay (If anyone is gay in this house it's Jacob! At least Adrian actually gets laid, Jacobs never even kissed a girl before). Makes me so angry, and mum always slags Jacob off and bitches about him behind his back to me about how she wants him back in Germany, but then she has a go at me for saying it! Hypocrite!
I bought £17 worth of takeout today :D Yummy! So that was okay, other then that I'm bored and all I can think about doing is eating. I don't want to gain anymore weight! I'm going to get so fat :(
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