Me before depression

I used to be such a lively and bubbly person, I was popular and was friends with anyone and everyone. I had a large circle of close friends who I spent all day everyday with. We could just sit around and watch strangers walk by and we'd still be happy. I had the best friend in the world, Tanya Hillman. It was like she was my soul mate, she shared the same interests as me, she made me feel like I was the most interesting person in the world. I never really had a best friend before Tanya, at least not a true one.

It was like my life was absolutely perfect, there was nothing I could think of that was wrong with my life: my parents were still together and happy, we were living an above average lifestyle (money-wise), I had amazing friends, I was actually okay with my weight for the first time in my life, and everything just seemed like a never ending holiday.

My friends used to call me 'Amy-holic', my name is Amy and we would occasionally get drunk together (my trademark drink was Vodka, you couldn't even think of Vodka without thinking about me). Most people would say that the fact we were getting drunk at the age of 15/16 means we were either unhappy, pressured into it, or trying to show off. But it wasn't like that for us, we were one big happy family. I didn't have a boyfriend at that time but I didn't care, who needs a boyfriend when you have a good home life and an amazing social life?

It makes me realize how lucky I was and how much I took it for granted. Sometimes I think it's karma that ruined my life (my teenage life, at least). I used to treat my boyfriends badly, I was jealous and would often cheat on them. I was young and reckless but I never thought I'd have to deal with the consequences.

Here's a few pictures of me and my best friends before the depression:

(From left to right: Nikita, Chris, Conor, A-J, Tanya)

(From left to right: Chris and Conor)


(From left to right: Me (Amy) and Tanya)